Ryan Thomas Quay

"An Angel in the book of life,wrote down our baby's birth and whispered as she closed the book...too beautiful for earth..."
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These are poems and stories we have read and have helped us cope with our loss.I hope they can help you.
 

OH MOTHER, MY MOTHER

 

I TOUCH YOUR TEARS

INVISIBLE FINGERS

SOOTHING YOUR SKIN

I KNOW YOU THINK OF ME SO OFTEN

IN THE DAY, IN THE NIGHT,

IN YOUR DREAMS

GOING INTO AN EMPTY NURSERY

KNOWING I'LL NEVER BE THERE

BUT I AM... IN YOUR HEART

IN YOUR SOUL, I SHALL ALWAYS BE

FOR YOU GAVE SO UNSELFISHLY

OF YOURSELF.

INSIDE OF YOU, YOU CREATED

SUCH A WORLD FOR ME

A WORLD OF LAUGHTER, OF LOVE,

OF SADDNESS, OF SORROW

EVERY EMOTION PEOPLE COME TO KNOW

YOU SHARED WITH ME.

AND EVEN THOUGH I MAY NEVER

FEEL YOUR ARMS AROUND ME

I FELT  YOUR HEART BEATING,

LIKE A LULLABY, SINGING ME TO SLEEP

AND YOUR SPIRIT GIVING ME A SAFE HAVEN

ALREADY PROTECTING ME

NURTURING ME

PREPARING ME OF THINGS TO COME.

BUT SOMETINES THE JOURNEY

OF LIFE PULLS SOULS APART

AND YES, I HAD TO GO ON

TO ANOTHER PLACE.

I WISH I COULD STAY

I WISH THIS WAS A DECISION

I COULD MAKE

AND I KNOW YOU DO TOO.

KNOW THIS WHEREVER YOU ARE:

I WILL ALWAYS REMEMBER

THAT YOURS WAS THE FIRST LOVE,

THE FIRST JOY, THE FIRST SOUL

I WILL EVER KNOW

YOU GAVE ME THE COURAGE TO

GO ON IN MY JOURNEY

I HOPE I CAN DO THE SAME FOR YOU

YOUR HEART BEAT WILL ALWAYS

CALL ME TO YOU

LOVE, RYAN

 

OH FATHER,MY FATHER 

 

Close you eyes and feel me near

keep me inside you heart

let me live in your soul

you see through tears

the things we will never do

running across the fields of my youth

games never played

but it is not gone

those dreams you hold so close

for I live on every child you see

little ones standing alone...lost

or laughing in a playground

swinging so high

touching the tree tops

that is I

wanting just to love

feel my happiness in the song of a bird

see my sorrow in mother

hold her close forever

feeling your strength

for there will be one to come behind me

whether through God's grace or

from a different calling

a child chosen through his hand.

for in darkness, a light will appear

even if it is just the dawn

singnaling a new begining

and as you gather my mother to your heart

release your tears

let the healing begin

and discover that I am here

in you dreams

in your tomorrows

every rainbow is the path home

and if you should stumble

I am the wings that shall lift you

Love Ryan 

 


 

 

 

 
 
Angel Wings
A precious angel slipped away, no one heard a cry.
No time for Dad and Mommy to sing me lullabies.
My time with you was much too short. I had to leave too soon,
But love had joined us as I grew inside my Mommy's womb.
It wove it's way within our hearts, in all our hopes and dreams,
Until the very purest love became my tiny wings.
Although I could not stay with you, I knew right from the start,
That once you felt your angel's love, you'd keep me in your hearts.
I'm just a little angel but my time was not in vain.
As dark clouds that surround you give way unto the sun,
My precious parents you will see that any heart will sing,
If only for a moment it is brushed by angel wings.
By Jean Rozon
 

Tiny Angels

 

Tiny anges rest your wings,

sit with me for a while.

How I long to hold your hand,

and see your tender smile.

tiny angel, look at me,

I want this image clear...

   That I will forget your precious face,    

Is my biggest fear.

tiny angel can you tell me,

Why you have gone away?

You weren't here for very long...

Why is it, you couldn't stay?

Tiny angel shook his head,

"These things I do not know...

But I do know that you love me,

and that I love you so."

  

  Footprints Across our Heart

The door is closed. The lights turned off.
The closet stands bare.
All the room once waiting...
For the child that should be there.

Sorrow wells up inside of us.
Our tears, an endless flow.
All because we miss the child...
The child we'll never know

No camping trips, No soccer games,
Nor late evening talks,
No baseball camps or shopping trips
No shaded moutain walks.

We have not even memories
To help through times like these
We only have each other ,
as we go down on our knees...

To plead with you, our Father,
To take this pain away...
To help us know your love
will guide us through each day.

We may never know the reasons
For this terrible tragedy;
But we can know you love us
through all life's mysteries.

Our time was far too brief;
It was over before its start...
But our little angel left behind
Footprints Across Our Heart

Poem by W.Patrick Queen

 Angel of Mine

 

I felt an angel near today,

Though one I could not see,

I felt an angel, oh, so close,

Sent to comfort me.

 

I felt an angel's gentle kiss,

Soft upon my cheek,

And oh, whitout a single word

Of caring it did speak.

 

I felt an angels loving touch,

Soft upon my heart,

And with that touch, I felt the pain

And hurt within depart.

 

I felt an angel's tepid tears,

Fall softly next to mine

And knew that as those tears did dry

A new day would be mine.

 

I felt an angel's silken wings

Enfold me with pure love

And felt a strength within me grow

A strength sent from above.

 

I felt an angel, oh so close

Though one I could not see

I felt an angel near today,

Sent to comfort me.  

"Ask My Mom How She Is"

 

My Mom, she tells a lot of lies,

she never did before

But from now until she dies,

She'll tell a whole lot more.

 

Ask my Mom how she is,

And because she can't explain,

She will tell a little lie

because she can't describe the pain.

 

Ask my Mom how she is,

She'll say "I'm alright."

If that is the truth, then tell me,

Why does she cry each night?

 

Ask my Mom how she is

She seems to cope so well,

She didn't have a choice you see,

Nor the strenght to yell.

 

Ask my Mom how she is,

"I'm fine, I'm well, I'm coping."

For God's sake Mom, Just tell the truth,

Just say your heart is broken.

 

She'll love me all her life

I loved her all of mine.

But if you ask her how she is,

She'll lie and say she's fine.

 

I am here in Heaven

I cannot hug her from here.

If she lies to you don't listen

Hug her and hold her near.

 

On the day we meet again,

We'll smile and I'll be bold.

I'll say,

"You're lucky to get in here,Mom,

With all the lies you Told!"

Author

Joanne Burr

  

 
 
          
Candlelit Heart
A Christmas Poem by Mary E. Linton

Somewhere across the winter world tonight
You will be hearing chimes that fill the air;
Christmas extends its all-enfolding light
Across the distance...something we can share.

You will be singing, just the same as I,
These familiar songs we know so well,
And you will see these same stars in your sky
And wish upon that brightest one that fell.

I shall remember you and trim my tree,
One shining star upon the topmost bough;
I will hang wreaths of faith that all may see --
Tonight I glimpse beyond the hear and now.

And all the time that we must be apart
I keep a candle in my heart.
 
 

 

Pennies From Heaven

  
I found a penny today,
just laying on the ground.
But it is not just a penny,
this little coin I found.
Found pennies come from heaven,
thats what my Grandpa told me.
He said Angels toss then down,
oh how I loved that story.
He said when an Angel misses you,
they toss a penny down.
Sometimes just to cheer you up,
make a smile out of your frown.
So don't pass by that penny
when you're feeling blue.
It may be a penny from heaven,
that an Angel's tossed to you.

Author Unknown
 
 
Standing, waiting
Work to do
Angels wings when we
are through
Bells are ringing
Happy times
Angels wings and
nursery rhymes,
Every time you hear
them tolling
Every time you hear
them ring
Think of lullabies
sweet angel
And know that he has
got his wings,
Heaven's laughing as
is well
Angel wings brought by
the bell
Bells keep ringing
Angels sing
Lullabies and angel things,
Every time you hear
them ringing
Every time you hear
them toll
Think of lullabies
sweet angel
And their wings of
solid gold
Angels wings and lullabies
Sleep baby, don't you cry
Standing, waiting, work
to do
Angels wings when we are
through

  

  What Makes A Mother?


I thought of you and closed my eyes
And prayed to God today
I asked "What makes a Mother?"
And I know I heard Him say.

"A Mother has a baby"
This we know is true
"But God can you be a Mother,
When your baby's not with you?"

"Yes, you can," He replied
With confidence in His voice
"I give many women babies,
When they leave is not their choice.

Some I send for a lifetime,
And others for the day.
And some I send to feel your womb,
But there's no need to stay."

"I just don't understand this God
I want my baby to be here."
He took a deep breath and cleared His throat,
And then I saw the tear.

"I wish I could show you,
What your child is doing today.
If you could see your child's smile,
With all the other children and say...

'We go to Earth to learn our lessons,
Of love and life and fear.
My Mommy loved me oh so much,
I got to come strait here.

I feel so lucky to have a Mom,
Who had so much love for me.
I learned my lessons very quickly,
My Mommy set me free.

I miss my Mommy oh so much,
But I visit her every day.
When she goes to sleep,
On her pillow's where I lay

I stroke her hair and kiss her cheek,
And whisper in her ear.
Mommy don't be sad today,
I'm your baby and I'm here.'

"So you see my dear sweet ones,
your children are okay.
Your babies are born here in My home,
And this is where they'll stay.

They'll wait for you with Me,
Until your lesson's through.
And on the day that you come home
they'll be at the gates for you.

So now you see what makes a Mother,
It's the feeling in your heart
it's the love you had so much of
Right from the very start

Though some on earth may not realize,
you are a Mother.
Until their time is done.
They'll be up here with Me one day
and know that you are the best one!"

   

 I'll Be There

 

Daddy please don't look so sad,Mummy please don't cry.

Cause I'm in the arms of Jesus and he sings me lullabies.

Please, try not to question god, don't think he is unkind.

Don't think he sent me to you, and then he changed his mind.

 

You see I am a special child, and I'm needed up above.

I'm the special gift you gave him, I'm a product of your love.

I'll always be there with you, and watch the sky at night.

Just find the brightest gleeming star, thats my halo shining light.

 

You'll see me in the morning frost, that mists your window pane.

that's me in all the summer showers, dancing in the rain.

When you feel a little breeze, from a gentle wind that blows.

Thats me, I'll be there, planting kisses on your nose.

When you see a child thats playing and your heart feels a tug.

Thats me, I'll be there giving your heart a hug.

So daddy please don't look so sad, and mummy please don't cry.

I'm in the arms of Jesus, and he sings me lullabies.

 

 

  

 

 A DAD'S GRIEF
It must be very difficult
to be a man in grief
since men don't cry and men are strong
no tears can bring relief.
It must be very difficult
to stand up to the test
and take the calls and visitors
so she can get some rest

They always ask if she's all right
and what she's going through
but seldom take his hand and ask
"My friend, but how are you?"

He hears her crying in the night
and thinks his heart will break
he dries her tears and comforts her
but stays strong for her sake

It must be very difficult to start each day anew
and try to be so very brave
He lost his baby too.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 


                          
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